Even Eternity

Previously (YouTube): A Short Film By Matt Chin

queenali — Sun, 07 Jan 2007 22:16:24 +0000

For those of you who are not familar with my web browsing habits (pretty much everyone), you may not know that I am a HUGE Youtube junkie. Actually, anything similar to/relating to social networking is just plain awesome to me. As of today, January 7th 2006, I will start blogging about interesting sites, videos and people I find on the internet.

I’ll start off with a suspensful short film that has been recently featured on YouTube. It is titled “Previously” and is directed by Matt Chin. This short film was originally created for The 48 Hour Film Project. It won four big awards including Best Film, Best Director, Best Cinematography and Best Editing.

Matt Chin is also the host/director of the popular online “late-night” comedy talk show, My Show with Matt Chin.

So, that’s a bit of background information on the film and it’s director. Here’s the film itself.

Watch closely! It’s kind of confusing at first.

Previously (YouTube)

Thought: Wasted On The Youth

queenali — Sun, 07 Jan 2007 21:01:48 +0000

Have you ever thought about something so much that it ends up becoming just another big blur of despair? I’ve been thinking about him again. Actually, it’s not even just him anymore. It’s really everything put together. I really want to just dig a hole and hide in it forever. I can’t even distinguish what I’m unhappy about anymore. It’s like I need to move on but I can’t; can’t put it all behind me and pretend it never happened.

I feel like everything is so disorganized in my life now. I want to sort it all out again (like I’ve always been able to) but it’s becoming harder and harder to fit all the pieces back together. It doesn’t even take anything big to send my world into a downward spiral. I just cannot find all the pieces anymore.

All the people who have been able to help me before have dissapeared and I feel like I’m suffocating underneath this…this immense weight. There are so many things I need to keep going and it’s like I’m fighting a constant uphill battle with no return. I need to get away. I need to get away from this place. This house. This country. This world. I need to go some place where no one knows me or expects anything from me. I need to stop worrying and thinking about everything. I need everything to just STOP!

New Year’s Resolutions: Late Edition

queenali — Fri, 05 Jan 2007 19:58:59 +0000

OK, so I’m quite aware that the making of proper new year’s resolutions should really be done before the actual new year, I’m going to have to break tradition this year since I never got a chance to do it before January 1st 2007 (and I was too lazy to do it properly till the 5th.) I did think about it over the holidays, though. And this is what I came up with.

Queena’s Top 10 New Year’s Resolutions For 2007.

I will make my 2008 New Year’s Resolutions before January 1st 2009.
I will limit my use of vulgar language to a minimum; using it only in terms of reference and example. (i.e.”Who the fuck do you think you are?”)
I will force myself to just shut up when I have no idea what I’m talking about.
I will be genuinely happy for people even when I am truly not.
I will substitute the term “like”, with any other word I can fit into there appropriataly.
I will forget that the only person who can bring me back to life is the one who showed me how dead I really was; lifeless&dead.
I will stop pretending I don’t care; because I always will.
I will tell him the truth; you deserve so much better.
I will force happiness onto myself; even when I feel like bloody murder.
I will love everything; truly because I don’t deserve anything to begin with.

Alright, then. That definetly didn’t turn out the way I had hoped for. I really don’t want to start my year off with lies, though. So that’s it, then…

~~Happy~~ Belated New Year, Everybody!